you're reflecting too much

~ a reflection

Contemplation was never designed to be a cave.

Contemplation was created as a space to feel open.

An abode that has no walls, no crafted corners.

Reflection is an act of self-awareness.

A radical one at that.

But how aware are we of the reflection that unfurls as anxiety?

An excess amount of self-reflection is not a good thing.

No amount of excessive self-pondering can open up the room to receive data.

Information that could explode the tracking of patterning lies not in your analysis, but in the absence of it.

I often find that I’m being too reflective when I’m not having fun.

Do you have fun? Genunine I’m eating ice cream and there are stains all over my shirt I don’t care type of fun.

Have you been having fun? What is your fun?

Did you remember to check out the new cafe or ceramic studio?

When was the last time you drove to something out of your comfort mileage?

In my younger 20s, I would easily travel 30 minutes to a coffee shop for a shift in scenery.

My mechanic thought I was a lunatic.

My acupuncturist would encourage it.

Too much self-reflection doesn’t magically create the shift you’d hope it would.

It does no service to your spirit or your day-to-day experience.

It’s when I drop the excessive self-reflection and daydream with a tonic that things feel softer. Things tend to formulate when I’m not forcing the formula.

It’s not that deep.

I am the one who creates the reality of that depth.

I exfoliate so much energy when reflecting on things requiring less reflection.

My dry brush is raw.

If you don’t apply some moisture to the skin of reflection, then you know it’s left parched.

There is beauty in taking action and there is beauty in going for a stroll.

Both are nonetheless hydrating, but drinking too much water isn’t that supportive of the digestion of your world.

We have another half of the year left.

I seek to digest as much fun as my colon can handle.

I hope to absorb and assimilate nutrients outside of what’s physically serving me.

I want to tend a farm of laughs and green tea.

I want to see my friends, hold their hands, and tell them how proud I am of them for existing.

I crave the consumption of love letters to myself in the form of discipline, devotion, and self-care.

I want to simply digest.

That is all.

Too much self-reflection is not a good thing.

It can inflame your insides and paralyze your heart.

You are already living in a world of gigabyte consumption.

Give your rhythms a rest.

Make your fun the colonic.

I’ve been reflecting too much.

It’s been giving me a tummy ache and I want more room to eat.

This served me like a 5-course meal. I hope you received these words like a lunch placed in a field on a warm afternoon.

How healthy is your reflection?

Does it satiate your belly?

Does it make you bloat in certain seasons?

Reflection is my favorite tool.

It can also be a crutch to feed the addiction of suffering.

I hope your mind is organized by vined walls and offers space for dandelions to flow freely.

A manicured yard is a balm for the soul.

Clean, clear, and cut what you need.

Don’t stay too long in the garden ~ you’ll forget that there is a life to live outside the walls equally.

A little substack that wanted to come out and peek.

I didn’t want to make this any longer because I’m across a vintage store and my cells are telling me to pop in and drop the need to make any sort of writing length hold a higher value.

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xo

Sierra

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^ What I underlined this week

^ What i bought this week ~ a charming soft-on-the-eyes yellow mellow blouse from none other than rudy jude

^ What I’ve been contemplating the past few days (recently decided I’m retiring from psychological surgery / the study of stoicism has been supportive of this).

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