what you "lack" is your wealth
〰️ find home in your vacancy
You know I’m here for the mental titty twisters.
Your problem is not what appears to be deficient.
Your stuckness might not be rooted in shortage or non-existence.
I’m here to caress your hand and tell you to stop making your contraction the reason for your expansion.
I want you to find the meaning of God in your depletions.
Has that ever been a consideration or exploration worthy of your created fiction?
It’s a story, this suffering thing that has no meaning.
There is deep, and I mean, DEEP significance in the ability to make your vacancy a home.
To furnish the rooms of cobwebs and corners of dust with acceptance and trust.
Trust that there is an advantage to the deficit.
Acceptance in the surrender to letting these things in your lived experience be just that- living, breathing, and nothing more than an experience.
Your experiences, especially the ones that feel nulled of abundance, are so wildly wealthy I can’t even explain.
I want to throw this laptop at the wall.
I want to meet you on my knees and tell those parts of you that are seeing insufficiency as the only truth and reality.
Your lack carries an aspiring amount of prosperity.
Read that again.
There is something in your perceived lack that’s holding you back from seeing it as something that is going to move you. Speak to you. Soothe you. Let alone, hold you.
Could you imagine, the audacity to be held by the things you perceive to be missing?!?!
Insanity.
Perfection.
Devotion.
Rebellion.
The things that you feel are lacking are the things that have the most room for you to dance in.
They are the widest vases for your flowers.
They carry the most space to shapeshift in.
Spaciousness within lack is the step before making it a container.
That container is you.
I recently broke down this concept on my psychologist’s couch and I had to drive around aimlessly for half an hour after (( tearing in the car )) because it woke up so many drowsy internal parts.
I’m no longer taking melatonin for this lack I’ve been guilting and shaming.
The grogginess was never the problem.
The problem was me making a problem of it. Me pointing a finger at it and saying you need to be something different than what you are right now. I can’t learn if I don’t live.
The lack is a lived experience. It’s a learned modeling that can only be transmuted when the guilt and shame are removed.
Dude.
The “click” inside my psyche unleashed such an unhinged joy.
That type of Shen energy radiates through my cellular membranes.
What if your lack is actually your ticket to seeing how much you could profit?
Profit in the sense of receiving opulence in the form of clarity, love, smiles, relief, and most importantly, resilience.
Your lack can only lead you to fortitude when you choose to see it as the passage to purpose.
All these years my connection to lack was just asking me to open up to its aspiration.
Well, fuck.
The lack has completed its ultimate mission inside my being.
My lack held me so beautifully.
I fought it to the end.
Only to see I was battling myself.
We are the opponents with our parts.
There is no winning an internal war by blaming our parts as the enemy. Those weapons are outdated and quite frankly, continuing a vicious cycle that has no end goal of peace.
World peace but apply it to your physiological planet.
The continents inside you would love to see you be the first to stop the division.
Your innermost mama gaia is ready for regeneration.
That type of soil comes from a soul that sees the meaning in it all.
What type of information or data is overflowing in what feels empty?
There it is.
That’s it.
Love you.
xo
sierra
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this is one i need on repeat in my brain! thank you 🌸
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