Greetings from a formlessness that seeks to create a form inside me.
We are days away from a new moon- this one feels true to me in many realities.
A new moon inside the cavity of my breathing.
A new moon in the way I navigate cash flow and all things money.
A new moon planting seeds inside the cosmos of my beliefs and how open my dreams can be.
Today, the star card from my deck surfaced for the current energy I’m leaning into and I’m weaving it here for the two of us. I never insert pulled cards for my subbies but I’m always doing something new.
Here we have the collective both on land and at sea. We are pouring life-force energy into both the subconscious and conscious- we are noticing what has been hiding beneath and we are learning that to hydrate the conscious mind (the one that thinks, plans, and takes action), we must quench the thirst of the unconscious (the artist, the merging of the soul, and the force behind our patterns).
This beacon of light is glistened by 7 stars (representing the chakra system). Aquarius energy is coming through strongly here as this initiates us into where we are becoming our own water bearers to different realities. I’m an aqua sun in western astrology (cancer sun in vedic which all ties into this celestial conversation) so it felt fitting.
This card follows the tower card (infamous for many things by the title, but honestly I love the tower and I believe it is necessary for the assignment called being an earthling).
The constellations within show us that even when they become non-existent to the naked eye, they are present all the time.
Your next thing is right around the corner, but you doubt it because you are forcing it only to be lit by the stars themselves.
You, are the only star you need.
Stars that you may be depending on to deny that inner light: your current financial circulation, the evidence of your health spiral, the great unknown, seeking career changes, or making some jump.
Our light is there to illuminate through- we may feel like we are still in the dark with our dreams and what’s about to pull in, but my God, I see the shine in you even in the wind.
The stars kindle the fire in your strengths- especially the ones you’ve lost hope in.
A quote from abraham hicks - “Just as hoping is more productive than doubting- expecting is much more productive than hoping.”
This card comes to us to give us a wink in the overcast of our personalities.
A reminder that we had to feel dry in order to seek mineralization once more.
We are in an alchemical process of renewal- do you feel this as much as I do?
I too have been more conscious of the ick below that it has become wildly transformational for me to witness these inner teachings. To see how I’ve created trauma bonds with my own beliefs is the flashlight of them all.
That type of cosmic emission is enlightening.
The beaconing here is that we are maybe, finally, realizing that the next step is to actively participate in the co-creation process.
That co-creation begins when we are receptive to our role in it.
I’ve fallen time and time again to bruise my knees in the name of receptivity.
Why is it so fucking hard for us to receive?
There is a secret benefit to our struggle.
There is a silent bonus to our dismissal of ease.
The declination of receptivity is in coherence with our story.
A story that is usually crafted by a ghostwriter- one who may be a distant ancestor or a far away version of you.
Tell me, whisper it to my inner being….is your current story in alignment with the version of you who asks to expand and magnetize beyond this current actuality?
This has been my most personal quest within the past 6 weeks.
Your actuality is not actual.
Couldn’t be further from the truth.
It is a formulated storyline that only confirms what you believe in.
We reject creating a new story because it’s EASIER to feel coherence with our limitations rather than attune to our liberation.
Read that again.
The place where we find EASE is through struggle.
The place where we find EASE is through conflict.
The place where we find EASE is through difficulty.
I manipulated ease into being hard because I didn’t believe that ease was possible for me.
I needed difficulty to validate that ease was not only unattainable but also distant from the radiation of my being.
You will be asked through your struggles if struggling is a worthy character to place in the story over and over again.
I am not my story.
You are not the same documentary you were 9 years ago; yet, there are scenes we can’t seem to let go of.
Work has been (and is for many of us) a portal to viewing our struggles on the big screen.
I left struggling for other bosses and brands to only struggle working for myself.
Ouchie.
I needed to create my own business to see that scarcity still ruled me whether it was a secure bi-weekly paycheck or playing in the field of not knowing what I was going to make next month.
I was shown my lack through my lack.
Another abraham quote because here we are…. “Anyone who is in a place of lack-no matter how much action they offer- attracts more lack. In other words, the powerful feeling outweighs any action that they offer. Any action that if offered from a place of lack is always counterproductive.”
Damn did I have to learn that lol.
I am blessing every action I did out of lack to show me that it was never productive in the first place.
I see the evidence of aligning my energy first before taking any action because truly “intention is everything.”
I am rewriting my story and making it as delusional as possible because that is my actuality.
Not the current state but the state that lives within me.
The space that my soul knows yet my limitations can’t grow in the soil there.
That is pure fertility.
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xo
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