I'm an amateur !!!

- the liberation of not being highly skilled

Noun: a person who is contemptibly inept at a particular activity

💫 This is my human’s path to salvation, this amateur thing 💫

I’ve recently made the descent into my internal core to meet the resistance I’ve had in creating something I’ve never done before (something so fundamentally vast upon my internal landscape) and the amateur energy of it is beyond my ego’s recognition.

My personal preference is to show up (and equally navigate) anything I offer or show you in the most formidable fashion.

I would love for you to think that I’m rhythmically talented and naturally elegant in the way I create.

I seek the outlook of my work to be seamless and glowy- to the point where there is no question that I am flawless at picking up new things and showcasing them like pieces in a Milan fashion show.

Darling, I am no fashion designer.

I am the piece itself.

I am sewn by the threads of this human experience: all by the constructs and contours of searching for validation.

The last thing I would ever want to expose is that I am just a beginner at everything I touch. So, I need this to be the first thing you know too.

I have a little skill here, another petite moment of expertise over there.

There is not a single bone in my body that whispers “professional or aficionado of what I do.”

I have no fucking clue what I do.

How dare I claim expertise over such a thing?

Truthfully, I am the most notable amateur of anything I create and perhaps that’s where we find home in one another.

An abode that says- I don’t need you to be qualified to receive your wisdom. A dwelling that calls us to sit around a nook and bond over common experience instead of always having experience rooted in hierarchy.

Look at the world around you.

Open up Instagram and tell me how many humans welcome that they are beginners of this aliveness.

We constantly (myself included) solicit expertise to guide us.

There is a solidified time and place to do this; however, there is a shift occurring where I no longer want to learn all the time.

I just want to exist with you.

I don’t want another course or group program that demands my brain to go into hypervigilance.

I acquire data from embodiment, not modules.

I attain inspiration from vulnerability, not freebies into your email list.

I’m on a royal quest to find cosmic intelligence through your ability to fart on camera and zoom in on arugula stuck in your teeth.

I saw a quote the other day on social media that struck me and it wraps up what I’ve been feeling in this past season- “infographics are tiresome.”

Let’s unpack that.

I want to expand you into seeing that infographics do not just pertain to literal posts created to absorb and memorize material that you will most likely forget later.

Showing up as perfect is an infographic.

Creating work that is so maticiculous in detail that it leaves out your humanness is an infographic.

An infographic is now a living breathing piece of information that is tiresome in every regard.

I’m quite exhausted of our humanity concealing the blemishes of itself.

The foundation is thick out here.

There’s very little room for your skin to exhale.

Perhaps this is where “my work” now resides.

Letting your skin underneath the makeup of society & social media respire.

At least that’s where I have now found myself in the echos of these closed-in walls.

It feels like the maze is only consuming our direction more and more.

The compass is haywired and I’m heading north.

My GPS system is obnoxiously telling me to go so far out of bounds that I now must surrender to it.

I’m in the works of launching an offering that exemplifies just that ~ an off-road experince for me & you on the spiral of humaning.

✽ My favorite ✽

This is a sign for you to stop whatever you are doing and remind yourself that your creations (no matter the size) demand all of YOU.

Not just what the sales page wants of you.

Not just what your “dream client” wants of you.

It’s what source itself wants of you.

Source wants you to want you, and then other people can benefit.

That’s a true offering.

This is the generation of audacious service!

I am a humbled servant to the cause, and for this reason alone, I am so excited to be connecting with you in a way that feels like you will actually be in my home.

If you enjoy my substack posts and IG stories, this next creation I’m tending to will feel cozy to the corners of your spirit.

Stay tuned.

But most importantly, tune into you.

Where are the signals firing off for you to come back into intimacy with your innermost blotches and dents?

May I see them?

Give me a peek and I will gladly tell you how much it means to me.

The superficial skin of the interwebs around us are so cold, but your touch is so warm to my soul.

Until next time, dear internet friend.

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xo

⌇ Sierra

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