idgaf so that i can actually gaf
// an ode to authenticity
It’s been a while since I’ve written to you.
I’ve become a stranger to my own words.
The type of oddity where you have left behind pieces of your last self but the new self is on the cusp of ripening.
Hold onto that harvest for as long as you can.
This becoming is just that.
A beckoning to the purge.
A purification of some sort that goes beyond anything spiritual at all, but is entirely human.
I, the human, created these parts of self that are now being relinquished to become even more human.
That’s the essence of spirit anyhow.
Perhaps I’m landing here with you to step away from any clarity of who this self is and remove the performance I have for you inside my head.
I have no script for you, my darling.
I have not rehearsed a single line.
I come to the stage without any preparation, and my former versions are screaming for a petition.
Sign this new evolution of self off because she is no longer concerned about her disinterest in pleasing others!
An outrage to the audience that once made her find safety.
She’s now 30 and demands a scandal at every turn.
There is no preservation where I’m headed.
No certainty whatsoever of who will come to my show now that I am not reciting what was once wanted anymore.
Hi, welcome.
My name is Sierra, and I change every millisecond while living on planet earth.
A concept that has been rolling through my inner landscape has been caring so brutally much about myself that I completely stopped caring at all.
I stopped caring about what my family thinks I’m up to and started caring about what I’m up to. I started caring about the way I rest and soothing the inner battles of feeling like I’m not up to speed with the rest.
I stopped caring about any image that I need to commit to on social media. I started caring about not needing to commit to any perception whatsoever.
I stopped giving a fuck about how my message would land and started caring about how I would hold myself when it wouldn’t.
I paused any subtle fuck about who I thought I would be and would have accomplished by now and started giving a quiet fuck about loving each failure like it was its own picasso in my life art show.
I started displaying my shit like it was a world attraction.
I began caressing any ounce of envy I had towards others and nursed my subconscious to health by reminding myself that I too can obtain more.
I stopped caring so much so that I could actually offer care to what needs it the most.
Authenticity is a niche of its own.
This one word has become the epicenter of so many self-help earthquakes that I turned away from it at every corner.
The mere fact that authenticity became its own trend made me want to run away even more.
I forgot that this word can mean something so delicate, so true, to you and I. It can be seized by content creation and equally freed by being placed in the heart and not on a screen.
For me, I have found this word translated as unapologetic in the dictionary of my being.
Alas, that is what 2024 has already whispered to me while I’m still very much in its yin enveloping.
I have no apologies for what is to come. For the internal monsters to sing and for the external angels to dance along.
There is now a celebration for every thread of my quilt of aliveness.
I’m throwing a festival for my most epic mistakes and asking you all to come.
Join me, as we enter a fresh cycle of becoming more of our selves than ever before.
I’m so excited to announce that I have taken the dosage that I needed from biodecoding and will be moving forward this year as a certified human design reader. I will, per usual, be combining the essence of many things. Right now I’m loving the feeling of merging this very synthesis along with the gene keys, taoism, and 5 element theory.
Stay tuned as I drop homeopathic droplets into my weaving of these things and when you can officially book a reading of your soul blueprint with me.
<3
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I am utterly grateful for you
I am mesmerized by your eyes.
I am cherishing every bit of your presence even if we are miles away.
Thank you for being here with me and riding this rollercoaster of being a being itself.
May we all loose ourselves and everything we are trying to keep tidy endlessly.
xoxo
Medicine: “I began caressing any ounce of envy I had towards others and nursed my subconscious to health by reminding myself that I too can obtain more.”
"I paused any subtle fuck about who I thought I would be and would have accomplished by now and started giving a quiet fuck about loving each failure like it was its own picasso in my life art show."
this over and over and over again! I always find my way to your words at the perfect moment. Thank you for sharing yourself xx